Im beginning to fear that i wont be able to keep this 'fake smile' on much longer...life seems to be fucking me again lately. No wonder i keep to myself, no wonder i dont open up more, no wonder i dont trust people. Life isnt just some simple joy, and even when you work at it more often than not things just turn out fucking you over anyway. I was finally growing comfortable with being me again, around the people i love (yes love, people too much meaning behind that word, i love my friends, they are my family). I dont wanna deal with shit like this, that's why i moved to fargo to avoid the constant drama, why cant people just understand each other, instead they say something but mean another, say what you mean or don't even bother. Im just sick of wasting my time, and i know im just sounding like a fucking 12yr old girl ranting on about it...but shit i guess some of them must get life better or something...ive been through hell and back, and all i wanna do nowadays is try to enjoy the rest of my life and spend it with people i enjoy the company of..is that too much to ask for. What a day...fuck it all anyway...peace