So im sitting in the mall using their free wifi cuz i have no internet in my apartment currently. And i now understand my buddy’s hate for crowds…im not sure why not of all times, i normally dont really mind crowds but there is some sort of being watched in this setting..i feel like what i am doing is being observed, and truthfully it to an extent probably is. I mean i personally ‘people watch’ so whats to say that someone isnt watching me and wondering what im typing on my netbook, and what im texting, and whats on my mind. Time like now is when i realize just how alert and aware i am, i believe i would do great in a combat/war situation for that fact alone. I am hyper-aware to what is going on around me, without realizing it unless i pay attention to what my senses are doing i know just about everything that is going on within my visible reach. I trace the movements of all the people walking, know where people are sitting in my vacinity, i know where my nearest exits are. If some sort of emergency situation would arise i feel id be the last person to panic and the first person to grab my phone and take action no matter what it entailed whether that meant helping or evacuating myself.I wonder if i am the only person who contemplates such things in as innocent a setting as a small midwest mall…and i wonder why i do, all it does is adds stress to my mind that is completely unnecessary in normal everyday situations. Me and my buddy had always entertained the idea of joining the military, but as of late i realized that i no longer an option for me, but he seems to be getting closer to actually doing it with getting sick of college and of drinking. We’ll see where it goes though, i just know that anymore i would not be able to commit myself to such a decision. I could not sign my soul to the government, i could not sign up to be sent overseas into a combat situation that is not an active defense of our country. The only way i would ever do it now is if the US ever had to directly defend itself against an enemy military, i would be the first to sign up! …note to self…hope that situation never arises….So far school is going good, i wish i had a littel more time to get on here and update my life, but frankly without internet in my apartment and my school day spent on school work i dont have time to get to some source of internet to just update very often. Im actually between working on reading assignments and going to jiu jitsu so i figured id stop by the mall to check blackboard and my ndsu email before class. Jiu jitsu has been going really good lately, i still need to get the physical energy to last through all the classes on MWF like i did all summer. But hopefullysoon, and tomorow we are taking a class picture at the academy so i will throw taht up on here as soon as i get a copy of it. Off to class early to workout beforehand. Peace