Dreams..memory..both absolutely amazing and crazy things. K, so i had this dream last night (and lately i've been having alot of dreams that i just didnt wanna wake up from cuz they were just that amazing) where i me and jeremy were in my room in my parents house digging through a bunch of my old stuff looking for something. There were some drawings he found, some i remember doing, others that i know dont exist. But then we were digging through some old health workbooks that i actually vaguely think were real, and inside one we found a few pen pal letters from like middle school, and i remember these very vividly. But the thing that amazed the hell out of me is i was able to read them and see the pictures that of the kids that sent them and everything...i cant believe somewhere in my memory those photographically still exist...makes me wonder what else is in there that i've long consciously forgot about. Good things and bad, that i thought were long lost and forgotten may still be hiding somewhere in the depths of my memories. I was also thinking, since ive had nothing to wake up for the last 2 days i neglected to set my alarm, and not only did i remember more of my dreams but i realized how unnatural it is to just interrupt your sleep with a loud buzzing noise. I wish i didnt have to wake up to an alarm every single day. Also i watched this movie last night that's got me rethinking the way i eat. It's called 'earthlings' its a documentary about the process animals go through to become our food, clothing, test subjects, zoo attractions, circus acts, etc etc...and to say the least it was throughly disgusting and grousome. It got to the point where i was holding back tears and vomit and could no longer stomach looking at the screen, it was made mostly of hidden camera footage of farms, slaughterhouses, etc. Im not sure how much i can stomach to eat meat anymore, so im gonna try to healthily restructure my diet to exclude as much meat products as possible. Everytime i go to the fridge and see that carton of eggs sitting there vivid images flash through my mind, almost like i got PTSD or something lol...but seriously watching ppl laughing and having fun debeaking baby chickens, or clipping baby pigs ears and tails so they didnt turn to cannibalism, etc etc...its just disgusting and cruel..and i hate knowing i support that...anyway got some shit to get done today. Peace