I quit smoking weed 3yrs ago today...hows that for sticking to a resolution! haha..but seriously..thats wierd..

Eff this weather!

Je je...So i know you have shit going on in your life as well...but i'm not always the strongest person, and i've grown weak of tryin to chase after you, even as a friend it's hard sometimes...you mean alot to me, more than you'll ever know. I sit by so many times when i grow attached to people, and watch and help them become happy and go on and find someone to share their time with. I was gonna try and find the courage over vacation to tell you have a crush on you and would like to see if those feelings could go somewhere. I didnt want to be just another boy who asks you out, i wanted to try a different route, and maybe i should have, maybe i shouldnt have..but i can never read how you feel so i didnt know. But it's just too hard to even get a hold of you, let alone try and spend time with you..and i don't wanna be that guy that sits there and calls you over and over till you answer out of annoyance..and says yes out of pity..so i wont. I just had to write this to get it off my chest...I'll always be here as a friend when you need it..i just wish i had the chance to try and be more than that to you. I dont know what exactly i feel for you, cuz the time i get to see you is so spread out and far between...but i definately think of you as more than a friend...and i'm glad you'll never read this..cause then i'd just come of wierder than i've already been..i need to get my mind off this shit and sleeeep! peace

"I look up to the sky and say..it's now or never!"

F. Stokes and house cleaning...